Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts

Friday, January 16, 2015

WordCloud - for this blog

oh wow, a lot better than my FB one!!

it's just MY, TIME, JUST, LIKE, ME :)) (okay here's the real list) hehehe

130 my
93 time
91 like
80 一個
75 自己
69 just
68 me
62 very
61 so
59 do


WordCloud... closing on FB April 2015

睇番d好舊嘅post搵到 wordcloud 呢個 apps, 先發覺完來 4 月後無得玩!! 一玩... OMG...




多謝晒 689 ruin my days X_X

大家也去玩下 http://timc.idv.tw/wordcloud/

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

End of Year...

2014 coming to the end.

It has been a very very busy year (busy for nothing!?)  read back my blog (with very few entries), and highlights from various FB year end review, i'm glad some of my big plan (like my US) trip realized, small plan like getting more involved in the community is achieving step by step, another happy (in a nutshell) year with Elvin (LOL), and feeling loved throughout the year.

It has been a rough year, especially the 2nd half of the year, getting myself more and more aware and involved of what's happening in the political side of our daily life.  It's very sad to look back, and the current setting for our future, but I also feel like i'm so engaged and it's no way of return.  I never intentionally get up to the very front, without the bravery and guts to be frank, but i'm glad, in times like this i am here in a place call home. 

still call home, for now, and together, with a bunch of buddies who share similar values keeping an eye on my back, making sure I RAN away from tear gas, or guarding me against nonsense violence-abusive police.

I'm grateful, and feel being loved.

with different priorities in life, ppl around "selection" also have a twist, i guess, just like many others in HK.  it's not only about political stand point, but i think, in general, is one's priority and value of life.  As Chinese said, it is different to keep a conversation if 2 don't share the same beliefs.  I think as we grow older we just be a lot more selective who's around and whom to spend time with.

Afterall, we ain't young and don't have the luxury to spend limited time with those who don't treasure us as much as we treasure them....  I am grateful, being loved by sis's in Hawaii, friends in HK, my MBA buddies, my ASAT ex-colleagues, and of coz, my dear friends in US, and many others, who made my 2014 a colorful one.  Although I only have ONE birthday cake this year (and u know this make you 2 so special in my life!).  I also feel very loved for those who came all the way from different areas to just to meet up, a marvelous birthday weekend, and all the tailor made Christmas cards, not to mention, 2 wonderful meal at Jamie's Oliver ;-)

Grateful for 2014.  I hope, 2015 will be a better year.

and i really like watermelon's pict for this year's 903,  seeing this you're the one who came in my mind.  Yes, missing you, even now, yes even though we did meet up in the last day of 2014.  Things moved so quickly old mistake seems to repeat again, heart over head in a nutshell.  All i wanna do now is to enjoy the moment.  At the end no one can guarantee anything, why not at least create some good memories? I want to say thanks, for the positive impact you've given me - even though u're not the only, nor the first one to suggest, but I did take a step and had a dinner w/ my dad, after more than a decade since we did last time.  Thanks, for keeping me company when i was bored during road trip at work, or just being there having a McDonald's sundae together at 3 am after leaving Admiralty Harcourt Road.  All these, I'll never forget in my life, or i should say, I will make sure i won't forget all the details, like few years back.

I don't know how our relationship is heading, but for now, i'm thankful having you back in my life again, and because of you, I feel like I'm a better person (in my perspective anyway).  I hope, in the coming year, we can count down together, and many more to come 
西瓜
我喜歡「想」字,所以在今年的歌曲中,我特別喜歡馮允謙的《我好想你》。這句讓我很膽怯不敢說出的話,讓我可以偷偷在唱歌同時放進自己的心情。開心又糾結,是這句話包含的心情,也是2014年給我的感覺。2015年又會變得怎樣呢?先總結2014年再一齊走吧!

Thursday, December 25, 2014

拾回當天的「我」。。。

曾幾何時,我也以為我已忘了那時候的「我」.... 誰知最近又pick up 了當天的「我」... Orz
《某時候的「我」》鄺俊宇

某年的今天,你在哪?跟那位誰在一起,跟那位誰分開了,跟那位誰剛重遇?

秋來冬往,每當氣溫一驟降,回憶總喜歡往後退,搜索那毎好像還在,又好像已走失了的自己,「我」到哪裡去了?

那個「我」,那個曾經很思念某個人的「我」,那個曾經在愛情裡苦苦掙扎的「我」,那個很想去補救遺憾的「我」,那個「我」,到哪裡去了?

以為最懂自己的人,是自己,卻發現從來最口不對心的人,也是自己,當我們以為已經很了解自己,卻發現,真正了解你另一個「我」,是某個人。

他很懂你的所有,就連你不懂的,他也懂,為什麼呢?因為這個人曾有好一段時間陪在你身旁,照顧很需要依賴的你,他很用心,了解這個略麻煩的人,然後把細微,一一記在心裡。

然後,你很記得這個人,就算已失去他,但你更記住這個人,留不住,從來都最記得住,某年今日,他仍在身邊;但今夕何年,他失散途中。

不只是他不見了,就連那時候喜歡他的「我」,也彷若失散,那麼是代表我放下了這個人?

不,你知道的,你不會承認已放下這個人,只是你一直苦苦逃避,努力讓自己不記起,不回想,與其說你忘記了他,倒不如說你忘了那時候的「我」。

那個不能失去他的「我」。

結果來到今年這一天,你安好,他也安好,只是兩人從此不擁抱,你終領悟,沒了誰,但我們仍能呼吸,仍可生存,就算你失去他,忘了那時候的「我」。

但是,你沒失去成長了的自己。

他很好,真的,他真的很好,那麼就讓他繼續活在某年的今日,那時候的「我」並沒有消失,「我」是你,是陪著你成長的人。

>感謝你,繼《愛你,若只如初見》,《有一種幸福叫忘記》後,鄺俊宇第三部愛情散文作品《數到三,就放手》,正式登陸全香港書店,思念像光線,閉上眼也看得見。

ig:「kwongchunyu」

Monday, July 28, 2014

談政治 - 悼主場新聞

主場新聞嘅閉幕,我想令很多好似我咁懶鍵嘅盤戰士頓失一個既方便,又環保嘅平台read and reshare quickly.

無嘅,唯有刁轉D read / reshare less posts。 不過,有時真的希望蘇生真係純粹在商言商唔想每月倒貼/過咗之前set嘅 expected return of investment period 而摺埋主場。。。


區家麟係我其中一個喜歡嘅blogger, will definitely bookmark his page
http://aukalun.blogspot.hk/

Also a collection of my FB post and thoughts throughout the wkend:

衛斯理30年前的預言(填詞人 梁柏堅)
『要毀滅一個大城市,不一定是天災,也可以是人禍,人禍不一定是戰爭,幾個人的幾句話,幾個人的愚昧無知的行動,可以令大城市徹底死亡。。。只要令城市原來的優點消失,就可以令它毀滅死亡』
雖然,我並不特別認同倪生嘅生活方式/態度,曾幾何時我也可算是佢嘅粉絲(嚴重到俾呀媽落聖旨唔准睇!).人大了,就更佩服這些"科幻小說"作家天馬行空嘅想法(你諗吓當年 Startrek 都有類似ipad / speaker phone 等technology)...

1984 的來臨,暨悼主場
認同作者指出近日情況:歪理變真理。我唔係話我所相信嘅係真理,而係好多時候問/與對方討論佢會話 sth like "你睇多尐電視就知。。。
huh? I really think i am trying my best to receive info from multiple sources (including 張融 page, 元秋小姐果版未轉 page 無得follow 佢又未 authorize my friend request so cant git updates)...
有時真的希望蘇生真係純粹在商言商唔想每月倒貼/過咗之前set嘅 expected return of investment period 而摺埋主場。。。grey

我母親堅持反佔中
i believe my mom, and also many HKese in her age group, thought in a very similar way. my mom, although may not have 講出口,她,也說笑簽名有$2xx贈品係邊度呀... 不時我都問自己,難道真的有問題是我們嗎?是我們不懂感恩?ask for too much?maybe this is an example of stockholm syndrome...

Other links
我又覺得,唔駛 unlike 晒唔同嘅聲音,and the list is a good reference to keep in mind the standpoint behind each different media
House News 主場新聞 (232597 like) 執笠,作者和讀者流向甚麼媒體好?以下有一些推介 (含個人喜好及閱讀習慣),歡迎補完。

I. 去 like 這些吧:
D100 一呼百應 還聲於民 278640 like
香港獨立媒體網 155158 like
PassionTimes 熱血時報 43901 like
輔仁媒體 40191 like
SocREC 社會記錄頻道 35217 like
謎米香港 memehk.com 27856 like
852郵報 24340 like
評台 Pentoy 14573 like
本土新聞Local Press 9888 like
USP United Social Press 社媒 8220 like
惟工新聞 7206 like
膠登時報 Polymer 6112 like
hkpeanut 5770 like
民間電台(CITIZENS' RADIO) 3533 like
Ragazine.com.hk 3148 like
城寨 2236 like
Real Hong Kong News 2008 like
龍獅報 883 like

II. 去 like 這些吧 (非新聞類頁面,但評論貼市又獨到)
高登。時事台 39809 like
福佳與林忌創作 20612 like
拒絕香港大陸化 11170 like
The Glocal [全球新聞頻道] 8265 like
立法會重要議案表決紀錄 6501 like
港語學 6317 like
黑衣會 5260 like
議員票數自動標籤系統 4078 like
The Hong Kong Originals 3802 like
東南亞觀察社 (Southeast Asia Observer) 2301 like
Little Post 「一小步」 2218 like

III. 也可以 like 這些:
蘋果日報 868885 like
雅虎香港新聞 381763 like
South China Morning Post SCMP 93815 like
信報財經新聞 93185 like
am730 60471 like
EJ Insight 2798 like

IV. 立即 unlike 這些:
東方日報 431311 like
巴士的報 96746 like
港人講地 48151 like
時聞香港 47110 like
經濟日報 43054 like
正思香港 13279 like
DBC 16210 like
頭條日報 15387 like
星島日報 3193 like
英文虎報 1540 like

Thursday, July 03, 2014

再談政治-母親篇


Mom:   阿女,其實你有無辦法?都係諗下走啦
我:       吓?去得邊?你仲喺度喎
Mom:   啫,我都六十幾,好話唔好聽真係果頭近。。。 你唔同呀,你有專長嘛,留喺度無用,走得,就走啦
我:       吓?去得邊? 去到邊度都係要做二等公民喎。。。講真,我無細路都好D,我有D有小朋友嘅friend真係有諗過走...真係好似果時97咁呵

So I was having dinner w/ mom earlier tonight, we have gone through what'd happened and stuffs about the 7.1 demonstration.

Obviously she was a bit worry that I was one of the 511 who got arrested (as i told her that I'd join, but i did whatsapp her Jul 2nd early morning that i was home safe at 22ish), anyway so here's our conversation.  All along, 其實,我只想輕輕帶過,唔想因為自己嘅執著而傷和氣

誰知,母親語重心長地繼續講

Mom:    而家點同97!? 97果時,只要你肯努力,一定搵到食.而家,唔同.你睇我哋而家呢D年紀,邊搵到嘢做?都有嘅,洗碗或者清潔
我:         而家洗碗好高人工㗎,好似有萬六、七蚊
Mom:     不過年紀大點搬盤碟呀。當年送你哋去讀書,都係怕你哋走唔到。你如果有機會,走啦。香港唔同晒㗎啦

聽到,真係好心酸

我媽學歷唔高,對於我嚟講,佢真係果D唔識政治嘅人,因為whole life she works her butt off for my sis and my education,佢邊有好似我哋咁有luxury 諗咁多,總之,佢只係好努力工作,希望俾我哋多個choice 

我哋仲講過其他近期比較爭議性嘅大題,好似東北未經城規會批就搶住批budget;吳亮星不停revoke自己嘅裁決;白皮書,7。1政府話只有9萬人,議員向 CY 掟玻璃杯。。。 i'm glad, my mom is not one of those 只睇 CCTVB 嘅普通C9 ( 其實佢好少睇 CCTVB D 劇),日後我亦應該對我媽多D信心

心噏,今天的香港

Wednesday, July 02, 2014

2014.7.1

one of the toughest 7.1 demonstration - 7 hrs...

regardless of what the actual number (Police: 99k, Organizer: 510k, HKU: 120-170k), a big part of me (and i believe many others too) is "自我感覺良好" and feel "good" i'm not the only stupid one to be there.

"我不認為七一遊行後,政府會有甚麼轉變,我不認為近八十萬人投票後,中央會給予香港人真正普選。但遊行我一定行、投票我一定投,為什麼?這是知其不可而為之,這是我這偽中產唯一可以做的事。。。我希望感受一番,原來香港人、不只飲飲食食;原來香港人,不光但求上樓;原來香港人、是數十萬計的香港人,和我一樣,都像儍子一樣,居然會選擇在七一這種又熱又濕的天氣下,走出來,聲撕力竭向中共、向特區政府發出怒吼,要求真正民主自由的來臨。 原來香港人,不純是經濟動物;香港人,仍有值得世人敬重的地方。"

Deep inside, understand as per Island Master mentioned "無論任何辦法產生的行政長官(話知您是什麼直選,公提直選,勿都好),最終決定權還是在中方。"  

我更唔希望我及很多香港人,"被某些人,左右都好,去矇騙,牽著鼻子走。最終,被帶領進入一個死胡塗,最後慘淡收場。您要知道,明白共黨是什麼類的東西。您知道是什麼嗎 ?您和他們接觸過嗎?和他們打過交到嗎?您知道他們的底線是什麼?"

其實見到咁多人,真的很可悲

聽見沿途播/唱著家駒嘅海闊天空,真的眼濕濕流下淚,概嘆點解我哋每年7.1 唔可以好似慶祝July 4th ,從心底裏高高興興地慶祝,反之每年不厭其煩上街示威遊行?? 其實,我真的累了,我真的希望可以普天同慶地慶祝。是我不知足,asking for too much?  是奢望嗎??

隔岸指責/support 很易,好似董伯伯話齋,留低比離開需要更大勇氣。(選擇)留下,不易。也許,another time heart over mind

P.S. this is what i posted on fb

"而家我同我嘅電話一樣 - 得返1%電: 兩點幾到維園3B session, 中間(晚上八/九點)只係喺補給站(aka Starbucks) 休息咗15-20min. It took me 7 hrs (14:30-21:50) from Victoria Park to Central... 92k? they mean 920k ah

Thanks for 同行戰友 Peggie Lau & Shabrad Chow風雨不改,同埋 kim lau, janet wong and 很多朋友們沿途打氣, 沿途唱起"今天我寒夜裡看雪飄過懷著冷卻了的心窩飄遠方...不禁感動,為何現在的香港那樣陌生?

希望我哋嘅政府正視我們的訴求, 2017 真普選, do you hear the people sing? (and unfortunately, were not able to take any picts after 19:30 as my battery is dead).

 Picts uploaded on  Facebook.

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

金錢世界...

最近做了個 heart over mind 嘅 decision, 希望這個 decision 唔會帶來任何negative impact to our relationship,更唔希望因為呢個 decision 而失去一段我好珍惜嘅感情. 

其實所有錢可解決倒嘅都唔係問題(只是時間上嘅問題).

願一切順利安好.

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星島日報副刊「公子日記」專欄 2014/06/11



Friday, May 23, 2014

當年今日...

Not even Jun 4 yet, but more and more related posts are on FB these days as the time draw closer...

It is like a frozen moment in my mind - that the very next day (Jun 5) when 陳智儷主任 talked with us about what'd happened at Tienanmen Square the night before...

young I was, i REALLY appreciate her, and many other teachers back then, tried their VERY best to explain and discuss with back then UNDERAGE students in various occasion: during our "social science" class, or Chinese class, just can discuss openly.  We WERE underage back then, but that doesn't mean we shall not be exposed to what's going on (and be part of) what's happening around us, in our society....

I lost contact with 陳主任 already, only known she and her family immigrated to Vancouver after retirement.  May life be good to her and her family.

There are many "frozen" moments nailed in one's mind and follow for the rest of one's life. "社會堂 on Jun 5, 1989 taught by 陳主任" is definitely one of those moment for me, at least it is for the last 25 years.  (the other one was when 911 happened)

毋忘六四

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歐錦棠 Stephen Au 

那是個充滿浪漫和冒險精神的年代。因為看了有哥哥、曼玉加紅姑的單元節目《日落巴黎》,翌日便馬上訂機票遠走花都,電視上出現過的景點,都按圖訪尋,舉機自拍一番,過了充實悠然的五天。 回程機是個折磨,也是個特別經歷,那時「蘇聯」仍出現在世界地圖,即使天空仍限制於鐵幕之外,其他航空公司要往返歐洲,跨越北極上空的「北極線」是另一選擇,整段航程約廿三小時,但可飛越地球頂端,體驗最短的日落日出,鳥瞰浩瀚白茫茫極地景致,此生不枉。

翻天覆地的變化 
那時,資訊流通不可與現今同日而語,身在外地幾與日常隔絕,航班上除了固定電影節目,例必有世界大事之類的新聞報道。就在回程機上,報道了兩宗新聞,令我看儍了眼:一是北京學運領袖下跪求見國家領導層不果,再發起二十萬人絕食;二是香港竟有超過百萬市民自發上街遊行支援學運。我不能想像在離港短短五日,在世界的另一端已掀起翻天覆地的變化;我不敢相信我的眼睛,一向號稱搵食至上,政治冷感的香港人一下子引發起愛民族、崇自由的熱情,竟可以如此純真可敬;但令我不可接受的,卻是中國人原來還不能從奴性底子自我釋放,即使申訴冤情,只要在天子腳下還得遵守尊卑莊閒。

看了片段,百感交集,激動莫名,相信機上老外無人會明白這青年為何看得哭腫了眼,他們不會明白,因為他們不能領會一個長久被淹在陰霾之中的民族是何等悲痛。

航班中途停莫斯科,全部乘客要按規定下機安檢,我有幸排頭位,機艙門打開,是一個身荷AK47、比我高一個頭,樣cool到殺人的蘇聯佬,令人不寒而慄,最後上機時被搜出二圓硬幣,波浪外形設計加上有女皇圖像,安檢人員見獵心起,我悉數奉獻才得順利登機,這就是我第一個在共產國家的遭遇,那時豈知這個鐵幕原來即將面臨解體的命運。 

以上是1989年5月21日前發生的事,之後,情況就急轉直下,由宣佈戒嚴、北京市民和幹部百萬人示威、到發起全球華人大遊行、然後就是六四屠城慘案。名著《1984》的作者George Orwell說過:「在這欺詐的世代,講真話就是革命性的行動。」 當今日有人提倡要把事件重新定位,更有人要翻出「真相」的同時,當年經歷過這一段刻骨銘心歷史的我們這一輩,就有責任將史實傳承,而各位年輕朋友亦應好好利用互聯網,深入了解這段歷史的起因,

毋忘六四。

Thursday, February 06, 2014

故語有云,一年之計在於春...

故語有云,一年之計在於春...係唔係太早發夢呢??真係好想返學校行一轉,睇場波...仲有梗喺 Harry Potter Land!!!  唔好意思叫人等太耐呀嘛... (so very super sweet of Ed for not going and wait for me even though he has been visiting FL all these times)...

really hope my US trip will be solid this year!!!! cross my fingers!!!!


Friday, October 05, 2012

MBA....

總算對自己有個OK交代啦。。。


 
"停"學也有四個月了,讀書嘅日子好似已經係好耐世紀之前嘅事。。。其實,比想像中放低得更容易。昔日常見嘅同窗,也有好一段日子無見面了。
 
反正,我們每人其實在讀書前都是自己忙自己的,更何況而家唔駛上堂,有D回去上學前嘅生活;更多 engage and began the next phrase in life.

And we're never the same. We passed our crossroad and now it's time to depart from each other and go on our journey, on our own, again...
 
Still glad to have a chance to know the everyone of you, from welcome drinks, to orientation, endless powerpoint, presentation, and many other fun drinking karaoke times.  It was an interesting experience, and glad i did have that part and all of you encountered in this part of my life.  And now is the time to move on...

Wednesday, October 03, 2012

FW: 做個有深度的女人

做個有深度的女人?!

Talking LOW is never really happen to me, especially when i'm around w/ those I do really care, showing I do enjoy and having such a great time....

繼續膚淺下去很任性吧?but when someone reached my age, does anyone care?!

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瑚說百道:有深度的女人

長輩說我現在已不再年輕,應該要學習做個有深度的女人。甚麼是有深度的女人?除了要不斷增值自己,學習在說話時把音量收細,還有遇着甚麼事情,都不要有太大反應,在人前永遠都是保持淡然的態度。這樣子別人便不會輕易看出我的底蘊,更會誤以為我是個深不可測的女人,凡事便會忌我三分了。

增值自己我每天已在做,把音量收細亦已開始實行了,但要裝出有深度呢?在我而言便可能有點難度了。熟悉我的朋友都知道我是個怎樣的人,好聽點說是陽光一族,刻薄的說則是膚淺不懂藏拙,所以朋友大多對我沒有戒心。

若跟我無關的事,我當然不會有甚麼大反應,但當遇上我在乎的事,我便絕對難以沉着應戰。就以談戀愛為例,某次跟某人分手,我打了幾段短訊,痛罵他一番。之後跟兩個好姊妹說到這件事,她們都異口同聲說,為甚麼還要花時間在他身上,簡單的從此不再聯絡便已足夠。可是,我真的在乎嘛!那一刻在乎的,已不是那個人可會回頭,要求我收回「聖旨」,而是很想他知道我當時有多麼的難受。其實都已走到分手的一步,為甚麼還要在乎那麼多?因為我是個十分尊重感情的人,即使是完結也要讓對方知道原因,不會讓一段感情不明不白的逝去。所以我想,我還是繼續膚淺下去算了。



















Thursday, August 23, 2012

FW: Chking in and chking out

my problem is too easily letting others to check in.. aiii...  unlike Mr. Wong's view, to me 年紀愈大愈學會要懂得放低 , it's harsh, yet is part of life....

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路中拾遺:Check Out


美國喪屍劇集《The Walking Dead》某個小段落頗令我動容。年紀老邁的鰥夫Dale收留了一對姊妹,其後喪屍來襲,妹妹慘死,姊姊不欲獨活,終於決定在一個快要毀滅的防疫中心等待爆炸。Dale屢勸不果,毅然決定坐下來陪她一同等死。姊姊厲聲趕他離開,一直像個慈祥老伯的他終於激動地把一直抑壓隱藏的愛傾吐。他說:「You can't come into somebody's life , make them care and then just check out!」

要讓一個願意放下喪妻之痛,重新接受另一個人關愛的老人拿起又再放下,是一種比見死不救更狠心的殘忍。他好不容易才願意在這種亂世裏對另一個隨時都會消逝的生命釋出愛意,對方卻說不想再抱着希望活下去,除了心痛,你還能怎樣?所以老人選擇一同赴死,因為再次讓這樣的一個人在眼前失去,不如死掉算了。

我們的心不是酒店,年紀愈大,愈是不容易輕易把門打開讓陌生人進駐,只因我們都知道,旅人離去不帶走一片雲彩,然而我們僅有的心的碎片,都會給對方一同帶走,所以如果你沒有心理準備,就別輕易讓任何人在你心上Check In,因為一旦Check In,就意味着對方總有一天Check Out,屆時留在原地的,就只有你一個而已。

是的。你總是無法想像,也無法接受,當初Check You Out的是同一個人,最後說走就走,狠心Check Out的,竟也是同一個人。



Thursday, August 16, 2012

FW: 誠品@香港

frankly i wouldn't say i LOVE reading and a TRUE reader but i do enjoy the "quiet" enrionment in Taiwan Eslite a lot.... unfortunately, i went to their HK shop in Hysan last nite.... keep asking myself - how can a book store be so NOISY (worse than a MALL) ga >.<

aiiiii...  it was around 20ish,  maybe i should try after midnite maybe "better" (however, shouldn't a BOOK SHOP be quiet ALL THE TIME>!?!?!?)

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我恒我訴:深宵誠品的香港人

近日不少人問:「你誠品咗未?」筆者搖頭,對方即現出一臉難以置信,像在說:「你身為作家,怎能未到誠品朝聖?」想起近日港人逼爆誠品的場面,便想起數年前在台灣遇到的一樁「醜事」。

台北的「誠品敦南店」向來最受港人歡迎,皆因它的2樓書店通宵營業。對於善用時間的港客來說,掃完西門町和士林夜巿,再到此店流連一番,實在最好不過。

當晚零時許,筆者仍在該店內「打書釘」。四周非常寧靜,人們都聚精會神地閱讀。忽然,不知哪裏傳來一陣喧嘩聲,劃破了寂靜。很明顯,是來自一群女性,更觸動到筆者的原因是,這些刺耳的噪音全是標準廣東話:「嘩,呢度有咁多雜誌任揭?」、「如果香港有間咁嘅嘢,仲得了?」某特別高音的女士更說:「咁大地方,仲咁靜添!真係難得!」

原來雜誌架旁站了5名「中年香港女士」。或許她們以為自己身處旺角女人街,一直七嘴八舌,談剛才夜市小食,又說明天要到九份喝甚麼茶,其聲浪之大,竟貫徹了大半間書店,極之擾人。在場不少靜心閱讀的顧客皆搖頭嘆息,正享受讀書樂的筆者也大感汗顏和羞愧,心想:「真丟臉!」只要稍為愛惜閱讀的人也知道「書店內要安靜」,可惜,對這群香港人來說,誠品只是一個「必到景點」而已。

誠品進駐香港,當然可喜可賀。不過,正如一年一度的書展般,香港人是真的愛閱讀?還是只想趕潮流、扮文化人,或是只想逛商場和歎冷氣?誠品賣的不只是書籍文具,還有其幽雅高尚的文化氣息。誠然希望,到香港誠品的人能好好學習和感受,而不是踐踏和破壞。

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Wednesday, June 13, 2012

FW: 你代表了他最差劣的歲月

女神之翼:你代表了他最差劣的歲月
http://the-sun.on.cc/cnt/lifestyle/20120613/00504_001.html


他不想見你,未必真的好憎你,而是,好憎那個曾經在你面前好失敗的自己。


見着你,就想起當時那個可憐又可恨的自己,那個傷口還在啊。

他曾經以為,去愛你,是綽綽有餘的事。誰知,因為各種的不如意,愛着愛着,就無力了。應該對你很好,但他沒有做。甚至,以一些冷酷刻薄的言行去掩飾自己的無能為力。

最後,他甚至出軌了,不因為愛上了別人,而是因為他想讓你絕望、逼你走。

多年後,他的情況稍為轉好,但深知無面目見你。你代表了他的失敗歲月,也代表他的愛無能,更代表了他的自卑,以及他的低能幼稚處事方式。

一班舊朋友聚會,他沒有到,你曾經懷疑,是因為你當年主動離開他,因而他好憎你。才不是呢,他在你離開後,常常想起你,他知道只是自己無福氣,無法與你這種好女人一起。
要是他在當年無待薄過你,他今日不必怕去見你;但因為待薄過你,他過渡不到那個卑劣又不合理的自己。
不要逼他露面了,他今世都不會想再見到你。

有些愛情,無法扭轉心痛的結局,就算你說了原諒,你和他都依樣心痛。

深雪

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Old TV...

A crazy day at work (how rare that is!)  and went straight home right after work.  Cooked +吃過蝦子海鮮炒年糕便做回我的 couch potato for the rest of the nite until 23ish to take elvin for a walk.

NO HOMEWORK, no dinning out, actually, kinda nice and enjoy the "quiet time" :)

it's not too hot hot but it's humid and rain all day long.  after walking elvin all misty and sticky so took shower - and "relocate" my activity center from the couch back to bedroom - wah! haven't be in bedroom before 0030 for a long time - and suddenly feel very fortunately (and grateful) that i actually have a tv in the room and just like another working station. :))  here's the TV in my room:

Konka Digital Nicam TRADITIONAL TV

when was the last tie u see this type of BIG TV?  actually i didn't buy this - to be exact, i "inherited" this from grandma - she got this long too long before she past away, and that's like the only thing i insist to mom that i wanna keep from grandma.   

didn't realize grandma past away for almost 7 yrs already.  Wow, time sure flies, i kept thinking it was only a few yrs back.  I do miss her a lot, from time to time.  :(

and here's a few snapshots of elvin - just his daily look.  LOL



having elvin sleeping on the other side of the room makes me believe i live happily even now.  Grandma, don't worry, i miss you but i'm living happily now.

Monday, May 07, 2012

FW: 找其他人放上心



hmmmmm, as Tarot B said, "車輪轉"!!!


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女神之翼:找其他人放上心

女孩子持續半年o依o依哦哦,都在申訴感情的苦。不是不肯為她分憂,而是,那個男人根本只是普通朋友,她有心他無意。

我對女孩子說,她的最大問題是,沒找到其他能讓她放上心的人。

目前,她只找到這個男人,於是,就把對方放上心,自己虐待自己。所以,解決這類「無謂癡情」的方法,就是找多幾個人放上心。去找吧!上網找又好、出街找都好,最緊要不停識人,勤有功之下,就算遇不到兩情相悅的,也可能會遇上有感覺的,把他們都放上心好了,心裏放多幾個,就不會像如今這樣難捱。

許多女孩子都在受着曖昧的苦、暗戀的苦。要溝淡這些苦的方法,就是把其他人放上心。

說真的,你以為你好鍾意這個人,其實未必。你可能只是悶,又或是發花癲,更可能只是流年不利易心亂。

為甚麼只想着他?你其實知道,他根本不值得。他不會回報你的愛,甚至,不稀罕與你熟落。你放他上心?可能,他在心裏一直鄙視你,知道你放他上心之後,會更深一層鄙視你。

趕快去識人。也許,轉個頭你就能找到一個更值得你去日想夜想的心上人,他真正值得你放他上心。

深雪

Monday, April 23, 2012

Elvin...


THINKING to go to bed and settled Elvin in the bedroom... turned off living room's light and yet working on some ppt slides in the dark...

next thing was that Elvin came back out from the bedroom and chk out why i stayed in the living room...
I asked him why he came out (from the bedroom), petted him and asked him to go back to sleep... then he walks slowly and go back zzz into the bedroom..

from time to time he really drive me nuts, but at the end of the day, he does, understand what i said :)

Life will be tough when it's his time to leave  :(

Friday, March 16, 2012

FW: 內心的準備 - end of my MBA

Toward the end of my MBA life, yes, still have TWO MORE electives to go @_@, but last core class will end next Monday - after that, many buddies will head back to their own life, just like before we started 2 yrs ago. 

I do understand it's "part of the deal," and understand some of our life's "cross path" won't just end right there, but deep down still "sadden" to leave this part of my life - we saw each other AT LEAST twice a wk in the last 18 months, celebrated and "cut" NUMEROUS birthday cakes, as well as celebrating mid-autumn fest, cny's eve, Valentine's day (HAHA) and many other festivals together (by no choice but just class), HAHAHA....

Not to mention with numerous PPT, ESSAYS, Case StudieS, presentationS, examS, sending me next day's reading assignments just b/c i lost my copy in the laundry (HAHAHAH) / forget it next to my bed, or simply the same was eaten by Elvin!!!!! (and more than once! HAHAHA).... McDonald's chicken McNuggetS, Starbucks' cheesepocketS, Pacific Coffee's Buy-1-get-1Free, Hot PotS, kS, drinkS....

also with FightS (i did have some STUPID SILLY KID type of "war" w/ classmates that ended in tears more than once OMG), hugS (but no, no kissES LOL), many many others....

Without the head start w/ Chris, and his last email to us, i wouldn't be ready for the last 18 mths; my 6 senses, Steph, Howard, Anita, Billy, Jan, Harry and Stephen, each taught me something "different" in life (haha, although they may not know!).   Together with many others, I know maybe as the article said, many things i may have overlooked / "not ready" and missed, i do feel LUCKY annd BLESSED that it just happened our life did cross each other in some pt.

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.  I'm REALLY grateful, to get to know them, thanks, for filling my MBA life w/ laughters and tears. Thanks for taking me in and took good care of me, thanks, for being my 親密戰友 the whole time, i never feel 孤獨 with you around (even at time when elvin tear off / eat up my notes!) LOL

I sure will miss this part of my life a lot.   Understood can't look back all the time, and it's about time (if not too late) to look ahead.....

Looking forward to the drinks gathering after last class next Monday - a closing 序幕 for my MBA life...

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路中拾遺:內心的準備


楊照寫給他女兒的溫柔叮嚀《我想遇見妳的人生》其中一篇是這樣寫的:當年楊照帶着年僅三歲的愛女到京都看楓葉,然而因為年紀太小,後來她記得的,俱是跟楓葉無關的瑣細,譬如當時誓死不肯穿上,一穿上就哭鬧的藍色波點外套,其他,不管紅葉多美,京都多醉人,她都毫無記憶。

於是楊照一直記着這一件小事,並時刻警惕。他把這個定義為人生的殘酷。他說,儘管三歲的你到了京都,看了楓葉,去過嵐山、高山、太原,然而因為你年紀太小,你的感官和記憶還沒準備好,所以這些地方都沒有進入你的生命,成為你生命的一部分……

人的生命有或沒有甚麼,不是取決於我們到了哪裏,遇上甚麼,而是我們遇上、看見時,我們的內在感官與記憶有多少準備,能發生多少聯繫。生命的豐富與否,與其說是跟外在環境有關,不如說是跟自己內在準備有關,更為確切。

為甚麼那麼多人到羅浮宮或者大英博物館沒有感覺,那是因為他內在還沒準備好,所以才毫無感動。反過來說,為甚麼我們會輕易對某些別人麻木無感的人或事觸動流淚、感恩痛苦,那不是詛咒,也不是孤獨,只是因為我們內在的準備比別人豐富而已。這是恩賜,即使再孤獨,無人共鳴,也不該把這天賜的敏感當作不幸的詛咒。想讓自己的生命更豐富,不是走得更遠,而是,更開放自己的內在,時刻做好準備,迎接下一個觸動的瞬間。

王貽興

Sunday, February 12, 2012

In Memory of Whitney...

I still remember Her Bodyguard CD was probably the 1st CD i ever got in US. That was the time i "listen" to English songs (and know how to sing!) haha.. Her voice is probably the only one can "touch" my heart, not marie carey, nor celine dior, Whitney is probablyh the only one...

those were the good old days...

What a lost, she was only 48...

In Memory of Whitney... I'll always love you~