Wednesday, December 31, 2014

End of Year...

2014 coming to the end.

It has been a very very busy year (busy for nothing!?)  read back my blog (with very few entries), and highlights from various FB year end review, i'm glad some of my big plan (like my US) trip realized, small plan like getting more involved in the community is achieving step by step, another happy (in a nutshell) year with Elvin (LOL), and feeling loved throughout the year.

It has been a rough year, especially the 2nd half of the year, getting myself more and more aware and involved of what's happening in the political side of our daily life.  It's very sad to look back, and the current setting for our future, but I also feel like i'm so engaged and it's no way of return.  I never intentionally get up to the very front, without the bravery and guts to be frank, but i'm glad, in times like this i am here in a place call home. 

still call home, for now, and together, with a bunch of buddies who share similar values keeping an eye on my back, making sure I RAN away from tear gas, or guarding me against nonsense violence-abusive police.

I'm grateful, and feel being loved.

with different priorities in life, ppl around "selection" also have a twist, i guess, just like many others in HK.  it's not only about political stand point, but i think, in general, is one's priority and value of life.  As Chinese said, it is different to keep a conversation if 2 don't share the same beliefs.  I think as we grow older we just be a lot more selective who's around and whom to spend time with.

Afterall, we ain't young and don't have the luxury to spend limited time with those who don't treasure us as much as we treasure them....  I am grateful, being loved by sis's in Hawaii, friends in HK, my MBA buddies, my ASAT ex-colleagues, and of coz, my dear friends in US, and many others, who made my 2014 a colorful one.  Although I only have ONE birthday cake this year (and u know this make you 2 so special in my life!).  I also feel very loved for those who came all the way from different areas to just to meet up, a marvelous birthday weekend, and all the tailor made Christmas cards, not to mention, 2 wonderful meal at Jamie's Oliver ;-)

Grateful for 2014.  I hope, 2015 will be a better year.

and i really like watermelon's pict for this year's 903,  seeing this you're the one who came in my mind.  Yes, missing you, even now, yes even though we did meet up in the last day of 2014.  Things moved so quickly old mistake seems to repeat again, heart over head in a nutshell.  All i wanna do now is to enjoy the moment.  At the end no one can guarantee anything, why not at least create some good memories? I want to say thanks, for the positive impact you've given me - even though u're not the only, nor the first one to suggest, but I did take a step and had a dinner w/ my dad, after more than a decade since we did last time.  Thanks, for keeping me company when i was bored during road trip at work, or just being there having a McDonald's sundae together at 3 am after leaving Admiralty Harcourt Road.  All these, I'll never forget in my life, or i should say, I will make sure i won't forget all the details, like few years back.

I don't know how our relationship is heading, but for now, i'm thankful having you back in my life again, and because of you, I feel like I'm a better person (in my perspective anyway).  I hope, in the coming year, we can count down together, and many more to come 
西瓜
我喜歡「想」字,所以在今年的歌曲中,我特別喜歡馮允謙的《我好想你》。這句讓我很膽怯不敢說出的話,讓我可以偷偷在唱歌同時放進自己的心情。開心又糾結,是這句話包含的心情,也是2014年給我的感覺。2015年又會變得怎樣呢?先總結2014年再一齊走吧!

Thursday, December 25, 2014

拾回當天的「我」。。。

曾幾何時,我也以為我已忘了那時候的「我」.... 誰知最近又pick up 了當天的「我」... Orz
《某時候的「我」》鄺俊宇

某年的今天,你在哪?跟那位誰在一起,跟那位誰分開了,跟那位誰剛重遇?

秋來冬往,每當氣溫一驟降,回憶總喜歡往後退,搜索那毎好像還在,又好像已走失了的自己,「我」到哪裡去了?

那個「我」,那個曾經很思念某個人的「我」,那個曾經在愛情裡苦苦掙扎的「我」,那個很想去補救遺憾的「我」,那個「我」,到哪裡去了?

以為最懂自己的人,是自己,卻發現從來最口不對心的人,也是自己,當我們以為已經很了解自己,卻發現,真正了解你另一個「我」,是某個人。

他很懂你的所有,就連你不懂的,他也懂,為什麼呢?因為這個人曾有好一段時間陪在你身旁,照顧很需要依賴的你,他很用心,了解這個略麻煩的人,然後把細微,一一記在心裡。

然後,你很記得這個人,就算已失去他,但你更記住這個人,留不住,從來都最記得住,某年今日,他仍在身邊;但今夕何年,他失散途中。

不只是他不見了,就連那時候喜歡他的「我」,也彷若失散,那麼是代表我放下了這個人?

不,你知道的,你不會承認已放下這個人,只是你一直苦苦逃避,努力讓自己不記起,不回想,與其說你忘記了他,倒不如說你忘了那時候的「我」。

那個不能失去他的「我」。

結果來到今年這一天,你安好,他也安好,只是兩人從此不擁抱,你終領悟,沒了誰,但我們仍能呼吸,仍可生存,就算你失去他,忘了那時候的「我」。

但是,你沒失去成長了的自己。

他很好,真的,他真的很好,那麼就讓他繼續活在某年的今日,那時候的「我」並沒有消失,「我」是你,是陪著你成長的人。

>感謝你,繼《愛你,若只如初見》,《有一種幸福叫忘記》後,鄺俊宇第三部愛情散文作品《數到三,就放手》,正式登陸全香港書店,思念像光線,閉上眼也看得見。

ig:「kwongchunyu」

Monday, July 28, 2014

談政治 - 悼主場新聞

主場新聞嘅閉幕,我想令很多好似我咁懶鍵嘅盤戰士頓失一個既方便,又環保嘅平台read and reshare quickly.

無嘅,唯有刁轉D read / reshare less posts。 不過,有時真的希望蘇生真係純粹在商言商唔想每月倒貼/過咗之前set嘅 expected return of investment period 而摺埋主場。。。


區家麟係我其中一個喜歡嘅blogger, will definitely bookmark his page
http://aukalun.blogspot.hk/

Also a collection of my FB post and thoughts throughout the wkend:

衛斯理30年前的預言(填詞人 梁柏堅)
『要毀滅一個大城市,不一定是天災,也可以是人禍,人禍不一定是戰爭,幾個人的幾句話,幾個人的愚昧無知的行動,可以令大城市徹底死亡。。。只要令城市原來的優點消失,就可以令它毀滅死亡』
雖然,我並不特別認同倪生嘅生活方式/態度,曾幾何時我也可算是佢嘅粉絲(嚴重到俾呀媽落聖旨唔准睇!).人大了,就更佩服這些"科幻小說"作家天馬行空嘅想法(你諗吓當年 Startrek 都有類似ipad / speaker phone 等technology)...

1984 的來臨,暨悼主場
認同作者指出近日情況:歪理變真理。我唔係話我所相信嘅係真理,而係好多時候問/與對方討論佢會話 sth like "你睇多尐電視就知。。。
huh? I really think i am trying my best to receive info from multiple sources (including 張融 page, 元秋小姐果版未轉 page 無得follow 佢又未 authorize my friend request so cant git updates)...
有時真的希望蘇生真係純粹在商言商唔想每月倒貼/過咗之前set嘅 expected return of investment period 而摺埋主場。。。grey

我母親堅持反佔中
i believe my mom, and also many HKese in her age group, thought in a very similar way. my mom, although may not have 講出口,她,也說笑簽名有$2xx贈品係邊度呀... 不時我都問自己,難道真的有問題是我們嗎?是我們不懂感恩?ask for too much?maybe this is an example of stockholm syndrome...

Other links
我又覺得,唔駛 unlike 晒唔同嘅聲音,and the list is a good reference to keep in mind the standpoint behind each different media
House News 主場新聞 (232597 like) 執笠,作者和讀者流向甚麼媒體好?以下有一些推介 (含個人喜好及閱讀習慣),歡迎補完。

I. 去 like 這些吧:
D100 一呼百應 還聲於民 278640 like
香港獨立媒體網 155158 like
PassionTimes 熱血時報 43901 like
輔仁媒體 40191 like
SocREC 社會記錄頻道 35217 like
謎米香港 memehk.com 27856 like
852郵報 24340 like
評台 Pentoy 14573 like
本土新聞Local Press 9888 like
USP United Social Press 社媒 8220 like
惟工新聞 7206 like
膠登時報 Polymer 6112 like
hkpeanut 5770 like
民間電台(CITIZENS' RADIO) 3533 like
Ragazine.com.hk 3148 like
城寨 2236 like
Real Hong Kong News 2008 like
龍獅報 883 like

II. 去 like 這些吧 (非新聞類頁面,但評論貼市又獨到)
高登。時事台 39809 like
福佳與林忌創作 20612 like
拒絕香港大陸化 11170 like
The Glocal [全球新聞頻道] 8265 like
立法會重要議案表決紀錄 6501 like
港語學 6317 like
黑衣會 5260 like
議員票數自動標籤系統 4078 like
The Hong Kong Originals 3802 like
東南亞觀察社 (Southeast Asia Observer) 2301 like
Little Post 「一小步」 2218 like

III. 也可以 like 這些:
蘋果日報 868885 like
雅虎香港新聞 381763 like
South China Morning Post SCMP 93815 like
信報財經新聞 93185 like
am730 60471 like
EJ Insight 2798 like

IV. 立即 unlike 這些:
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巴士的報 96746 like
港人講地 48151 like
時聞香港 47110 like
經濟日報 43054 like
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星島日報 3193 like
英文虎報 1540 like

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Leo Ku - 致少年時代

Leo recent new song <<致少年時代>> is very easy and very comfy to listen, i think will be a good hit - both melody and lyrics are very meaningful.

 就是聽得舒服...

   

原來對上一次派台已經係兩年前的<<告別我的戀人們>>, 不知怎的,現在聽返都仲有那種毛管凍嘅感覺,林夕果然係大師!

 

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Daily Routine for Pattaya Biz Trip X_X

had a very very long day... so exhausted - WORSE is that there's no chance to rest during those long car ride (not to mention can't listen to 903!) as big boss Mr. Dick U. is talking all along...

really 收買人命咩

--
06:50-07:20 breakfast
08:00-09:15 hotel to office
09:30-12:00 meeting
12:00-12:50 lunch
13:00-15:30 meeting
15:30-16:45 report
16:45-17:50 office back to hotel
18:00-18:40 report
18:45-19:20 hotel to restaurant
19:30-21:45 dinner with bosses
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Dinner place - Nice environment and good food (except a bit too windy for like 30 min)


Really exhausted.... but oh well, when i see the factory - once again i feel i got one step closer to the "chemical engineering field" again :)


'

better get some rest for another long day tmr! Add oil - to myself!! :)

Thursday, July 03, 2014

再談政治-母親篇


Mom:   阿女,其實你有無辦法?都係諗下走啦
我:       吓?去得邊?你仲喺度喎
Mom:   啫,我都六十幾,好話唔好聽真係果頭近。。。 你唔同呀,你有專長嘛,留喺度無用,走得,就走啦
我:       吓?去得邊? 去到邊度都係要做二等公民喎。。。講真,我無細路都好D,我有D有小朋友嘅friend真係有諗過走...真係好似果時97咁呵

So I was having dinner w/ mom earlier tonight, we have gone through what'd happened and stuffs about the 7.1 demonstration.

Obviously she was a bit worry that I was one of the 511 who got arrested (as i told her that I'd join, but i did whatsapp her Jul 2nd early morning that i was home safe at 22ish), anyway so here's our conversation.  All along, 其實,我只想輕輕帶過,唔想因為自己嘅執著而傷和氣

誰知,母親語重心長地繼續講

Mom:    而家點同97!? 97果時,只要你肯努力,一定搵到食.而家,唔同.你睇我哋而家呢D年紀,邊搵到嘢做?都有嘅,洗碗或者清潔
我:         而家洗碗好高人工㗎,好似有萬六、七蚊
Mom:     不過年紀大點搬盤碟呀。當年送你哋去讀書,都係怕你哋走唔到。你如果有機會,走啦。香港唔同晒㗎啦

聽到,真係好心酸

我媽學歷唔高,對於我嚟講,佢真係果D唔識政治嘅人,因為whole life she works her butt off for my sis and my education,佢邊有好似我哋咁有luxury 諗咁多,總之,佢只係好努力工作,希望俾我哋多個choice 

我哋仲講過其他近期比較爭議性嘅大題,好似東北未經城規會批就搶住批budget;吳亮星不停revoke自己嘅裁決;白皮書,7。1政府話只有9萬人,議員向 CY 掟玻璃杯。。。 i'm glad, my mom is not one of those 只睇 CCTVB 嘅普通C9 ( 其實佢好少睇 CCTVB D 劇),日後我亦應該對我媽多D信心

心噏,今天的香港

Wednesday, July 02, 2014

2014.7.1

one of the toughest 7.1 demonstration - 7 hrs...

regardless of what the actual number (Police: 99k, Organizer: 510k, HKU: 120-170k), a big part of me (and i believe many others too) is "自我感覺良好" and feel "good" i'm not the only stupid one to be there.

"我不認為七一遊行後,政府會有甚麼轉變,我不認為近八十萬人投票後,中央會給予香港人真正普選。但遊行我一定行、投票我一定投,為什麼?這是知其不可而為之,這是我這偽中產唯一可以做的事。。。我希望感受一番,原來香港人、不只飲飲食食;原來香港人,不光但求上樓;原來香港人、是數十萬計的香港人,和我一樣,都像儍子一樣,居然會選擇在七一這種又熱又濕的天氣下,走出來,聲撕力竭向中共、向特區政府發出怒吼,要求真正民主自由的來臨。 原來香港人,不純是經濟動物;香港人,仍有值得世人敬重的地方。"

Deep inside, understand as per Island Master mentioned "無論任何辦法產生的行政長官(話知您是什麼直選,公提直選,勿都好),最終決定權還是在中方。"  

我更唔希望我及很多香港人,"被某些人,左右都好,去矇騙,牽著鼻子走。最終,被帶領進入一個死胡塗,最後慘淡收場。您要知道,明白共黨是什麼類的東西。您知道是什麼嗎 ?您和他們接觸過嗎?和他們打過交到嗎?您知道他們的底線是什麼?"

其實見到咁多人,真的很可悲

聽見沿途播/唱著家駒嘅海闊天空,真的眼濕濕流下淚,概嘆點解我哋每年7.1 唔可以好似慶祝July 4th ,從心底裏高高興興地慶祝,反之每年不厭其煩上街示威遊行?? 其實,我真的累了,我真的希望可以普天同慶地慶祝。是我不知足,asking for too much?  是奢望嗎??

隔岸指責/support 很易,好似董伯伯話齋,留低比離開需要更大勇氣。(選擇)留下,不易。也許,another time heart over mind

P.S. this is what i posted on fb

"而家我同我嘅電話一樣 - 得返1%電: 兩點幾到維園3B session, 中間(晚上八/九點)只係喺補給站(aka Starbucks) 休息咗15-20min. It took me 7 hrs (14:30-21:50) from Victoria Park to Central... 92k? they mean 920k ah

Thanks for 同行戰友 Peggie Lau & Shabrad Chow風雨不改,同埋 kim lau, janet wong and 很多朋友們沿途打氣, 沿途唱起"今天我寒夜裡看雪飄過懷著冷卻了的心窩飄遠方...不禁感動,為何現在的香港那樣陌生?

希望我哋嘅政府正視我們的訴求, 2017 真普選, do you hear the people sing? (and unfortunately, were not able to take any picts after 19:30 as my battery is dead).

 Picts uploaded on  Facebook.

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

金錢世界...

最近做了個 heart over mind 嘅 decision, 希望這個 decision 唔會帶來任何negative impact to our relationship,更唔希望因為呢個 decision 而失去一段我好珍惜嘅感情. 

其實所有錢可解決倒嘅都唔係問題(只是時間上嘅問題).

願一切順利安好.

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星島日報副刊「公子日記」專欄 2014/06/11



Friday, May 23, 2014

當年今日...

Not even Jun 4 yet, but more and more related posts are on FB these days as the time draw closer...

It is like a frozen moment in my mind - that the very next day (Jun 5) when 陳智儷主任 talked with us about what'd happened at Tienanmen Square the night before...

young I was, i REALLY appreciate her, and many other teachers back then, tried their VERY best to explain and discuss with back then UNDERAGE students in various occasion: during our "social science" class, or Chinese class, just can discuss openly.  We WERE underage back then, but that doesn't mean we shall not be exposed to what's going on (and be part of) what's happening around us, in our society....

I lost contact with 陳主任 already, only known she and her family immigrated to Vancouver after retirement.  May life be good to her and her family.

There are many "frozen" moments nailed in one's mind and follow for the rest of one's life. "社會堂 on Jun 5, 1989 taught by 陳主任" is definitely one of those moment for me, at least it is for the last 25 years.  (the other one was when 911 happened)

毋忘六四

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歐錦棠 Stephen Au 

那是個充滿浪漫和冒險精神的年代。因為看了有哥哥、曼玉加紅姑的單元節目《日落巴黎》,翌日便馬上訂機票遠走花都,電視上出現過的景點,都按圖訪尋,舉機自拍一番,過了充實悠然的五天。 回程機是個折磨,也是個特別經歷,那時「蘇聯」仍出現在世界地圖,即使天空仍限制於鐵幕之外,其他航空公司要往返歐洲,跨越北極上空的「北極線」是另一選擇,整段航程約廿三小時,但可飛越地球頂端,體驗最短的日落日出,鳥瞰浩瀚白茫茫極地景致,此生不枉。

翻天覆地的變化 
那時,資訊流通不可與現今同日而語,身在外地幾與日常隔絕,航班上除了固定電影節目,例必有世界大事之類的新聞報道。就在回程機上,報道了兩宗新聞,令我看儍了眼:一是北京學運領袖下跪求見國家領導層不果,再發起二十萬人絕食;二是香港竟有超過百萬市民自發上街遊行支援學運。我不能想像在離港短短五日,在世界的另一端已掀起翻天覆地的變化;我不敢相信我的眼睛,一向號稱搵食至上,政治冷感的香港人一下子引發起愛民族、崇自由的熱情,竟可以如此純真可敬;但令我不可接受的,卻是中國人原來還不能從奴性底子自我釋放,即使申訴冤情,只要在天子腳下還得遵守尊卑莊閒。

看了片段,百感交集,激動莫名,相信機上老外無人會明白這青年為何看得哭腫了眼,他們不會明白,因為他們不能領會一個長久被淹在陰霾之中的民族是何等悲痛。

航班中途停莫斯科,全部乘客要按規定下機安檢,我有幸排頭位,機艙門打開,是一個身荷AK47、比我高一個頭,樣cool到殺人的蘇聯佬,令人不寒而慄,最後上機時被搜出二圓硬幣,波浪外形設計加上有女皇圖像,安檢人員見獵心起,我悉數奉獻才得順利登機,這就是我第一個在共產國家的遭遇,那時豈知這個鐵幕原來即將面臨解體的命運。 

以上是1989年5月21日前發生的事,之後,情況就急轉直下,由宣佈戒嚴、北京市民和幹部百萬人示威、到發起全球華人大遊行、然後就是六四屠城慘案。名著《1984》的作者George Orwell說過:「在這欺詐的世代,講真話就是革命性的行動。」 當今日有人提倡要把事件重新定位,更有人要翻出「真相」的同時,當年經歷過這一段刻骨銘心歷史的我們這一輩,就有責任將史實傳承,而各位年輕朋友亦應好好利用互聯網,深入了解這段歷史的起因,

毋忘六四。

Thursday, February 06, 2014

故語有云,一年之計在於春...

故語有云,一年之計在於春...係唔係太早發夢呢??真係好想返學校行一轉,睇場波...仲有梗喺 Harry Potter Land!!!  唔好意思叫人等太耐呀嘛... (so very super sweet of Ed for not going and wait for me even though he has been visiting FL all these times)...

really hope my US trip will be solid this year!!!! cross my fingers!!!!


Tuesday, February 04, 2014

Year of Horse - busy start!

four days CNY holiday comes to an end and tmr will be starting new job @ tanatax...  looking back and it has been a busy month for 1st month in 2014.  Guess it'll be a busy year ahead and ready to set off again!

Chor 1 - GodSon Erik's Tram Party! :)

Chor 3 - BBQ @ Home - ASAT Reunion after 12 years!

Chor 4 - Ed is back in town - Tea and Ramen @ Habitu & 豚王