FW: Chking in and chking out

my problem is too easily letting others to check in.. aiii...  unlike Mr. Wong's view, to me 年紀愈大愈學會要懂得放低 , it's harsh, yet is part of life....

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路中拾遺：Check Out


美國喪屍劇集《The Walking Dead》某個小段落頗令我動容。年紀老邁的鰥夫Dale收留了一對姊妹，其後喪屍來襲，妹妹慘死，姊姊不欲獨活，終於決定在一個快要毀滅的防疫中心等待爆炸。Dale屢勸不果，毅然決定坐下來陪她一同等死。姊姊厲聲趕他離開，一直像個慈祥老伯的他終於激動地把一直抑壓隱藏的愛傾吐。他說：「You can't come into somebody's life , make them care and then just check out！」

要讓一個願意放下喪妻之痛，重新接受另一個人關愛的老人拿起又再放下，是一種比見死不救更狠心的殘忍。他好不容易才願意在這種亂世裏對另一個隨時都會消逝的生命釋出愛意，對方卻說不想再抱着希望活下去，除了心痛，你還能怎樣？所以老人選擇一同赴死，因為再次讓這樣的一個人在眼前失去，不如死掉算了。

我們的心不是酒店，年紀愈大，愈是不容易輕易把門打開讓陌生人進駐，只因我們都知道，旅人離去不帶走一片雲彩，然而我們僅有的心的碎片，都會給對方一同帶走，所以如果你沒有心理準備，就別輕易讓任何人在你心上Check In，因為一旦Check In，就意味着對方總有一天Check Out，屆時留在原地的，就只有你一個而已。

是的。你總是無法想像，也無法接受，當初Check You Out的是同一個人，最後說走就走，狠心Check Out的，竟也是同一個人。

FW: 誠品@香港

frankly i wouldn't say i LOVE reading and a TRUE reader but i do enjoy the "quiet" enrionment in Taiwan Eslite a lot.... unfortunately, i went to their HK shop in Hysan last nite.... keep asking myself - how can a book store be so NOISY (worse than a MALL) ga >.<

aiiiii...  it was around 20ish,  maybe i should try after midnite maybe "better" (however, shouldn't a BOOK SHOP be quiet ALL THE TIME>!?!?!?)

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我恒我訴：深宵誠品的香港人

近日不少人問：「你誠品咗未？」筆者搖頭，對方即現出一臉難以置信，像在說：「你身為作家，怎能未到誠品朝聖？」想起近日港人逼爆誠品的場面，便想起數年前在台灣遇到的一樁「醜事」。

台北的「誠品敦南店」向來最受港人歡迎，皆因它的2樓書店通宵營業。對於善用時間的港客來說，掃完西門町和士林夜巿，再到此店流連一番，實在最好不過。

當晚零時許，筆者仍在該店內「打書釘」。四周非常寧靜，人們都聚精會神地閱讀。忽然，不知哪裏傳來一陣喧嘩聲，劃破了寂靜。很明顯，是來自一群女性，更觸動到筆者的原因是，這些刺耳的噪音全是標準廣東話：「嘩，呢度有咁多雜誌任揭？」、「如果香港有間咁嘅嘢，仲得了？」某特別高音的女士更說：「咁大地方，仲咁靜添！真係難得！」

原來雜誌架旁站了5名「中年香港女士」。或許她們以為自己身處旺角女人街，一直七嘴八舌，談剛才夜市小食，又說明天要到九份喝甚麼茶，其聲浪之大，竟貫徹了大半間書店，極之擾人。在場不少靜心閱讀的顧客皆搖頭嘆息，正享受讀書樂的筆者也大感汗顏和羞愧，心想：「真丟臉！」只要稍為愛惜閱讀的人也知道「書店內要安靜」，可惜，對這群香港人來說，誠品只是一個「必到景點」而已。

誠品進駐香港，當然可喜可賀。不過，正如一年一度的書展般，香港人是真的愛閱讀？還是只想趕潮流、扮文化人，或是只想逛商場和歎冷氣？誠品賣的不只是書籍文具，還有其幽雅高尚的文化氣息。誠然希望，到香港誠品的人能好好學習和感受，而不是踐踏和破壞。

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劉偉恒•導演及電台主持

FW: 你代表了他最差劣的歲月

女神之翼：你代表了他最差劣的歲月
http://the-sun.on.cc/cnt/lifestyle/20120613/00504_001.html


他不想見你，未必真的好憎你，而是，好憎那個曾經在你面前好失敗的自己。


見着你，就想起當時那個可憐又可恨的自己，那個傷口還在啊。

他曾經以為，去愛你，是綽綽有餘的事。誰知，因為各種的不如意，愛着愛着，就無力了。應該對你很好，但他沒有做。甚至，以一些冷酷刻薄的言行去掩飾自己的無能為力。

最後，他甚至出軌了，不因為愛上了別人，而是因為他想讓你絕望、逼你走。

多年後，他的情況稍為轉好，但深知無面目見你。你代表了他的失敗歲月，也代表他的愛無能，更代表了他的自卑，以及他的低能幼稚處事方式。

一班舊朋友聚會，他沒有到，你曾經懷疑，是因為你當年主動離開他，因而他好憎你。才不是呢，他在你離開後，常常想起你，他知道只是自己無福氣，無法與你這種好女人一起。
要是他在當年無待薄過你，他今日不必怕去見你；但因為待薄過你，他過渡不到那個卑劣又不合理的自己。
不要逼他露面了，他今世都不會想再見到你。

有些愛情，無法扭轉心痛的結局，就算你說了原諒，你和他都依樣心痛。

深雪

Old TV...

A crazy day at work (how rare that is!)  and went straight home right after work.  Cooked +吃過蝦子海鮮炒年糕便做回我的 couch potato for the rest of the nite until 23ish to take elvin for a walk.

NO HOMEWORK, no dinning out, actually, kinda nice and enjoy the "quiet time" :)

it's not too hot hot but it's humid and rain all day long.  after walking elvin all misty and sticky so took shower - and "relocate" my activity center from the couch back to bedroom - wah! haven't be in bedroom before 0030 for a long time - and suddenly feel very fortunately (and grateful) that i actually have a tv in the room and just like another working station. :))  here's the TV in my room:

Konka Digital Nicam TRADITIONAL TV

when was the last tie u see this type of BIG TV?  actually i didn't buy this - to be exact, i "inherited" this from grandma - she got this long too long before she past away, and that's like the only thing i insist to mom that i wanna keep from grandma.   

didn't realize grandma past away for almost 7 yrs already.  Wow, time sure flies, i kept thinking it was only a few yrs back.  I do miss her a lot, from time to time.  :(

and here's a few snapshots of elvin - just his daily look.  LOL

having elvin sleeping on the other side of the room makes me believe i live happily even now.  Grandma, don't worry, i miss you but i'm living happily now.

FW: 找其他人放上心

hmmmmm, as Tarot B said, "車輪轉"!!!


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女神之翼：找其他人放上心

女孩子持續半年o依o依哦哦，都在申訴感情的苦。不是不肯為她分憂，而是，那個男人根本只是普通朋友，她有心他無意。

我對女孩子說，她的最大問題是，沒找到其他能讓她放上心的人。

目前，她只找到這個男人，於是，就把對方放上心，自己虐待自己。所以，解決這類「無謂癡情」的方法，就是找多幾個人放上心。去找吧！上網找又好、出街找都好，最緊要不停識人，勤有功之下，就算遇不到兩情相悅的，也可能會遇上有感覺的，把他們都放上心好了，心裏放多幾個，就不會像如今這樣難捱。

許多女孩子都在受着曖昧的苦、暗戀的苦。要溝淡這些苦的方法，就是把其他人放上心。

說真的，你以為你好鍾意這個人，其實未必。你可能只是悶，又或是發花癲，更可能只是流年不利易心亂。

為甚麼只想着他？你其實知道，他根本不值得。他不會回報你的愛，甚至，不稀罕與你熟落。你放他上心？可能，他在心裏一直鄙視你，知道你放他上心之後，會更深一層鄙視你。

趕快去識人。也許，轉個頭你就能找到一個更值得你去日想夜想的心上人，他真正值得你放他上心。

深雪

A Fine Sat @ Stanley... :)

Turn out it's one fine day for the Wine Walk this year and only scattered shower at the very very end! :)  marvelous day out @ Stanley (although the wine is @.@), guess the company is more important! :)  Glad yekini joined, together w/ isabelle, chris, lucille, tammy, geroge, and of course, Carson the organizer.   LOL 

Started w/ a small lunch w/ Yekini, Isabella, Chris, George and their friend Carmen @ Rocksalt. the food.. hmmm.. so-so i would say, but it was really a great day out! :) (i'll upload the SUNNY pict later). here's the fish & chips... (we also had risotto, steak, pizza) hahaha

The Wine Walk started from 1500 - 1800. This year's charity will go to the Hong Kong Dogs' Rescue. ALL of us collected ALL 16 stamps (haha, borrow carol's pict)

and here comes the group picts :)

After the walk had tea @ 泗益大排檔 for its famous 咖央西多!  really really yummy (but finishing one by oneself is too tough la)  hehehe.. so yummy!

Watched Avengers with Yekini afterward.  Err.. we were 10 min late so missed the beginning (really FUNNY, called Taxi but the passengers won't get off V_V''')  WTF!  ANYWAY, the movie was okay - i mean, from the entertainment point of view it's filled w/ action (and overcome the weak storyline)   I still like Ironman the most (LOL) and Hulk is still scary if u know what i mean X_X

The movie is 2+hrs long and didn't finish until 22ish, back to CWB area and joined the gangs (Isabelle, Chris, George and Cathy) for drinks @ Dickens (after tried many places).  Like as if we haven't have enough drinks for the whole day! LOL...

One fine sat.... relax (and spoiled!) :)

2012 TimeOut Wine Walk

Hmm.. weather forecast is rainny :(  but looking forward to it...

Elvin...

THINKING to go to bed and settled Elvin in the bedroom... turned off living room's light and yet working on some ppt slides in the dark...

next thing was that Elvin came back out from the bedroom and chk out why i stayed in the living room...
I asked him why he came out (from the bedroom), petted him and asked him to go back to sleep... then he walks slowly and go back zzz into the bedroom..

from time to time he really drive me nuts, but at the end of the day, he does, understand what i said :)

Life will be tough when it's his time to leave  :(

FW: 內心的準備 - end of my MBA

Toward the end of my MBA life, yes, still have TWO MORE electives to go @_@, but last core class will end next Monday - after that, many buddies will head back to their own life, just like before we started 2 yrs ago. 

I do understand it's "part of the deal," and understand some of our life's "cross path" won't just end right there, but deep down still "sadden" to leave this part of my life - we saw each other AT LEAST twice a wk in the last 18 months, celebrated and "cut" NUMEROUS birthday cakes, as well as celebrating mid-autumn fest, cny's eve, Valentine's day (HAHA) and many other festivals together (by no choice but just class), HAHAHA....

Not to mention with numerous PPT, ESSAYS, Case StudieS, presentationS, examS, sending me next day's reading assignments just b/c i lost my copy in the laundry (HAHAHAH) / forget it next to my bed, or simply the same was eaten by Elvin!!!!! (and more than once! HAHAHA).... McDonald's chicken McNuggetS, Starbucks' cheesepocketS, Pacific Coffee's Buy-1-get-1Free, Hot PotS, kS, drinkS....

also with FightS (i did have some STUPID SILLY KID type of "war" w/ classmates that ended in tears more than once OMG), hugS (but no, no kissES LOL), many many others....

Without the head start w/ Chris, and his last email to us, i wouldn't be ready for the last 18 mths; my 6 senses, Steph, Howard, Anita, Billy, Jan, Harry and Stephen, each taught me something "different" in life (haha, although they may not know!).   Together with many others, I know maybe as the article said, many things i may have overlooked / "not ready" and missed, i do feel LUCKY annd BLESSED that it just happened our life did cross each other in some pt.

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.  I'm REALLY grateful, to get to know them, thanks, for filling my MBA life w/ laughters and tears. Thanks for taking me in and took good care of me, thanks, for being my 親密戰友 the whole time, i never feel 孤獨 with you around (even at time when elvin tear off / eat up my notes!) LOL

I sure will miss this part of my life a lot.   Understood can't look back all the time, and it's about time (if not too late) to look ahead.....

Looking forward to the drinks gathering after last class next Monday - a closing 序幕 for my MBA life...

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路中拾遺：內心的準備


楊照寫給他女兒的溫柔叮嚀《我想遇見妳的人生》其中一篇是這樣寫的：當年楊照帶着年僅三歲的愛女到京都看楓葉，然而因為年紀太小，後來她記得的，俱是跟楓葉無關的瑣細，譬如當時誓死不肯穿上，一穿上就哭鬧的藍色波點外套，其他，不管紅葉多美，京都多醉人，她都毫無記憶。

於是楊照一直記着這一件小事，並時刻警惕。他把這個定義為人生的殘酷。他說，儘管三歲的你到了京都，看了楓葉，去過嵐山、高山、太原，然而因為你年紀太小，你的感官和記憶還沒準備好，所以這些地方都沒有進入你的生命，成為你生命的一部分……

人的生命有或沒有甚麼，不是取決於我們到了哪裏，遇上甚麼，而是我們遇上、看見時，我們的內在感官與記憶有多少準備，能發生多少聯繫。生命的豐富與否，與其說是跟外在環境有關，不如說是跟自己內在準備有關，更為確切。

為甚麼那麼多人到羅浮宮或者大英博物館沒有感覺，那是因為他內在還沒準備好，所以才毫無感動。反過來說，為甚麼我們會輕易對某些別人麻木無感的人或事觸動流淚、感恩痛苦，那不是詛咒，也不是孤獨，只是因為我們內在的準備比別人豐富而已。這是恩賜，即使再孤獨，無人共鳴，也不該把這天賜的敏感當作不幸的詛咒。想讓自己的生命更豐富，不是走得更遠，而是，更開放自己的內在，時刻做好準備，迎接下一個觸動的瞬間。

王貽興

Wine Making Site Audit @ Must

meant to be a site audit for the Big10 monthly event - from "work" pt of view the purpose accomplished: audit is finished - but unfortunately the place FAILED (and personally quite a big disappointment).... 

I just don't see how ppl can have fun just mixing the thing - i mean, esp. for non-chemical background ppl, maybe the "doing" part w/ electronic balance, pipette etc etc "MAYBE" fun (but 1 time only non-repeatable, to me la), the theory part is boring for me (even though i understand more than half the technical terms he's saying (those chemical names la)..... AND the killing pt is that the wine made IS NOT GOOD - i've asked them to give us a "Sample" taste of the wine we're making (finished product) and it's NO GOOD.. V_V'''' and actually they've like 7-8 wine for 'tasting' during the session - and OMG, definitely NOT my style of whites @_@ and their red are.. V_V'' 

let's put it that way, their wine is ONLY average NOT too BAD - if benchmarking with regular house red in regular restaurant. However as a "Wine cellar" i expect they rinse their expectation a little bit... ANYWAY, glad that dear natasha and howard san were accompanying me..... o/w bored die :PPPP aii.. need to research MORE tim