FW: various quotes from paul son

Got this from Paul Son... wow... i mean, we seldom really talk about our "love" life - i mean, by the time we're physically in one place we're single (even today - what a sad thing?!)

uh..oh.. i start to worry again XD

haha

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愛情心情小語


《決心》
人的一生有許多難以取捨，困惑不已的鎖事所糾纏著，這時所需的就是斷然的捨棄與明智的抉擇。唯一會限制我們的，是我們自己的決心。

《理由》
逃避不一定躲的過，面對不一定最難過，孤單不一定不快樂，得到不一定能長久，失去不一定不再擁有。
你可能因為某個理由而傷心難過，但你卻能找個理由讓自己快樂。

《失去》
最淒涼最弄人的不是你知道，失去所愛的那一刻，而是你還在徘徊，猶未知道已經失去

《距離》
世界上最遙遠的距離，不是生與死，而是我就站在你面前，你卻不知道我愛你。
(i still remember BIG arguement before whether the above is written by Erica or another HK writer)

世界上最遙遠的距離，不是我就站在你面前，你卻不知道我愛你。而是明明知道彼此相愛，卻不能在一起。
世界上最遙遠的距離，不是明明知道彼此相愛，卻不能在一起。而是明明無法抵擋這股想念，卻還得故意裝作絲毫沒有把你放在心裡。
世界上最遙遠的距離，不是明明無法抵擋這股想念，卻還得故意裝作絲毫沒有把你放在心裡。而是用自己冷默的心，對你妳的人，掘了一條無法跨越的溝渠。

《炫耀》
不愛了，就別向他炫耀，向他炫耀只是代表－－
你還是在意他的想法，你還是對他念念不忘他看到這種窘態，只會深信你從來沒有忘記過他

《句號》
當愛情要完結時，你卻不想畫上句號也不行；當你懷疑是否主動畫上句號時，那表示你根本就拾不得，也沒辦法畫上這個句號；每一段情始終會有句號，句號要來時，你想擋都擋不住

《習慣》
愛情一旦成為了習慣，就會一輩子也擺脫不了的。

《放棄》
放棄一個你很愛的人，並不痛苦；放棄一個很愛你的人，那才痛苦；愛上一個不愛你的人，那是更痛苦。

《寂寞》
別因為寂寞而錯愛，別因為錯愛而寂寞一生。

《後悔》
別等到錯過後才去後悔，別等到失去後才想挽回。

《清楚》
或許只有在離得最遠的時候，才能把曾經走過的那段日子，看的最真確最清楚。

《機會》
人一生有許多的機會，只是看自己是否能把握住。珍惜眼前所看到的，滿足目前所擁有的。 我們常常為了一個機會，而錯失了更多的機會。

《緣》
若是有緣，時間空間都不是距離，若是無緣，終日相聚也無法會意。 凡事不必太在意，
更不需去強求，就讓一切隨緣吧

《思念》
思念總是有不得不收藏起來的時刻，而生命?最捨不得，藏得總是最深，且不讓人知道。

《淡忘》
一個人受到感情的傷害，原本是可以慢慢淡忘的，但如果心?一直念念不忘，就會使其所受的傷害，永遠難以痊癒。

《你的》
該是你的遲早都會是你的，若不是你的即使強留也留不住。

《面對》
不想面對他時，逃避不是一個好方法，但卻是唯一的辦法。

《遺忘》
一個人如果不能學會遺忘，那將是很痛苦的事。別再自尋煩惱，快把痛苦的事窗解了吧

《報復》
最好的報復不是毀掉對方更不是毀掉自己，而是要過的比他幸福和快樂。

《忽略》
人往往都只在乎別人是否關心你，卻常常忽略自己，是否也有關心別人。

Today - another Monday....

felt terrible when the following happened - but then when i think again actually it's kinda "funny" XD

• Spill coffee ALL OVER my NOTEBOOK & MOBILE (touch wood both still function now - but then, smell like CHEAP coffee! yukky)
  
  *and then baby taught me to put my mobile in the "rice container (mic gong)" such that all "moisture" will be absorbed*...
  
  maybe next time eating rice at home will have a flavor of coffee! hahahahaa

• Called a friend to wish him happy birthday before heading to work - but woke him up as he's a "big 6" guy now (so have big 6 holiday (National WEEK)"... although that jerk never calls back as he said (after he "promised in his dream" that he'll call back) but it's alright, still feel good to call him up on his birthday (yearly event - i.e. not more than twice a yr) and that, i'm REALLY over him...
  
  :)

• Feel totally exhuasted after class tonite - seriously i don't know how i'm going to hang on for NINE WHOLE MONTHS - but then, i'm glad that at least i'm committed to something - and that back to the "academic" atmosphere... well kinda...

• Felt terrible after talking to a friend... but then in some sense i'm glad to know how strong she's (and I still remember to see her as my "role model" when i was in school) - even after all these years i still think that it's a right choice of "role model" for me - if i'm 10% as strong & logic as her i wouldn't be whinning anything (esp. here in the blog)... but anyway, glad to have a little chat w/ her...

• had a terrible dream that one of my friends past away~ i don't know what gets into scorpio these days... just worry too much (and getting to a level is TOO TOO MUCH/insane level!) it isn't scorpio!!! what's wrong w/ me?! BUT then i'm glad that it turns out all okay now - i just THINK too much... way way way too much....

anyway, i guess I shouldn't complain anymore.. another good / fresh day waiting for me (and so have to head to bed NOW) :D

P.S. Oh, and not to mention, Pete is LEADING in the All America Mascot Team !!! Have you vote today?! Let's show some school spirits!! XD

typical Sunday

Got up around noon time... hahaha... played Sims until very late last nite... :P

i just don't understand - why living alone won't work out!?

ANYWAY, so this "morning" when i was just relaxing after lunch, chking emails and stuffs - over heard mom on the phone - she called one of her cousin who's in San Francisco... I guess in some sense it's good to know that mom actually "get over" the lost of grandma - i mean, at least she can state the whole thing clamly - must be hard for her. This cousin of her (in Chinese I still need to call her as auntie) - they've grown up together... just like siblings...

glad to know that mom's doing okay.... and it's always interesting to overheard mom talking about me & sis behind our back... hehehehehe :)

Stages... Maybe

there're many stages in life...

at one pt we're all worrying about which secondary school we could get in.... whether we should study science or "liberal arts"... getting into college, dating, graduation, first job, promotion/frustration/uncertain career path ahead...

last yr I felt like I'm "stepping" into the stage which friends/ppl around me getting marry..... all very positively....

but lately I feel like that "positive stage" has phased out - and getting into a stage which friends around are losing their loved ones - their grandma. First was Clem, then my own self... and this wk - 2 more friends...

Maybe we've really "grown up" and not consumed by the emotion as much anymore!? I always had a silly thought when grandma was around - as she's so close to me - and IF one day she's gone I'd felt terrible...

but in reality I was clam - so clam to the level that I was kinda "scared" of myself - and began to wonder starting from when I become such an emotionless person, even to my dear grandma?

It's "weird" that on the flight back from Portland I still feel touched like the first time when I watched Edward Scissorhands; I still feel so attached when I'm listening to Forrest Gump's soundtrack now - all the emotions just come back like when I first watched/listened to it - but then, when it comes to our LOVED ONE - how come we are so "clam"?

maybe b/c we know there'll be a lot of arrangements needed to take care...

maybe b/c we're too busy to think over the whole thing quietly (or we just don't want to stop and REALLY think about it quietly?)

maybe b/c we know we have to be "strong" and give support to the rest of the family and couldn't afford to let each other down...

maybe b/c we know we've to carry on no matter what...

maybe b/c we know they'll always in our heart - just as if they're alive.

maybe b/c we've really grown up...

maybe... maybe I just think too much... as you always said.

maybe I just think of you too much...

*I'm so tired of this game*

so tired of staying awake at this hour

so tired of waking up and turning off my alarm clock before it alarms...

tired of guessing what's in your mind...

tired of wondering if you still CARE,,,

How come...

1. Sleepless in Hong Kong (seattle still sounds better)
2. Head just wanna explode (felt asleep on the couch)
3. Bank said I'm turning in 2 fake US notes (i got it from them??)
4. Typhoon is NOT coming at all (no free holiday)
5. People just can't SPEAK UP and just plain dump (when online on ICQ)
6. People are NOT showing up for 2nd interview (50% is not coming!?)
7. Supplier is shouting at me for cancelling a USD350,000 order (my customer cancelled on me AFTER confirmation!)
8. I feel like vomitting...

i think i just complain too much...

Phone Marathon..

So had a phone marathon during the long wkend - my gosh, I can't believe I can actually talk THAT long these days!!! XD haha, I can't remember when/whom I had such a "phone marathon" last time... hmm... maybe... with Ken?

geez, if that's really the case it was a LONG LONG LONG TIME AGO...

anyhow... sure it's a small world afterall - we never cross each other's life before (even though we call each other "ex-colleague" but then we never stay in the same company during the same time) - and then after we talked and talked - just realize once again what a small world it's - a "miracle", or fate (in Chinese they said it's "yuen") for them to know each other at the first place - and I guess it's also fate to "link" us all together, well, in some sense.

I didn't realize until after the phone marathron that I might have put someone in a difficult situation - and I was blaming the whole situation all along - which I'm so regret now as I should have been more considerate... I thought I know him so well but I guess afterall I don't....

just hope times will heal the wound..

Anyway, grateful to know someone (AT TODAY'S AGE) whom can just talk about ANYTHING ("Sky South Earth North")... ha, maybe it's just easy for Scropio + Gemini to get along??

*er...

WAKAKAKKAKAKAKAKAKAAKAKAKA

Rearranging Bookshelf...

so got to a point that i can no long stand my messy bookshelf (okay, my whole room is actually in a mess) - yet since all books i got during Book exhibition still lying in the bag (yeah, back in JULY!!!) AND that i got a couple books during the trip - so, time to REARRANGE!!

Here's a view for the bookshelf:


5th floor resident - new resident since June - Bucky Badger!


3rd floor resident - just moved in - Benjamin XD


6th & 7th floor residents :)


Almost forget how "fun" it's to spend an evening w/ the bookshelf! hahahahahahahaha Only thing is that i don't have much room for "expansion"... *have already gave up some of the books i've read - and decide not to keep anymore*... hmm.........

Updated Side Bar....

Hey, check out some of the new links I've added on the side bar~~ :)

Phone Bill...

So finally today i got the phone bill - the one i used while on the trip...

my gosh, even more expensive than my "luxury" purse @_@;;;

well, most the bills b/c i've to call home & chk w/ mom if she's doing alright after grandma's gone........

but then, 1/5 of it - SMS - to be specific - international roaming SMS (and 25% is with the SAME AREA CODE).... @_@;;

sigh, made me feel sad again... thought i got over 打孿孔雀石綠 by covering my ears - but probably not enough (or simply didn't cover ALL THE WAY)

X_X''

心痛... really..........

Today is the day...

I got my 1st (if not the ONLY) "luxury" purse - i've to use this like 20 yrs in order to balance out the average cost (to compare w/ the last i've)
hahahhahahaa