Purdue...

today went to lunch meeting w/ the Purdue folks... i don't know, maybe this is called "meeting?" Identifying a leader is easy, unfortunately the leader will leave the group...

OH WELL

happen to see Little E & WF's picts from recent visit of Purdue. it's the same old school, yet so much have changed, i mean, I guess the feelings still the same when u look at the buildings or stuffs... but no matter it's hardware (so many new buildings), or the "software' have changed so much... it has been 8 yrs since I left.... probably a good time to call for an end as well..

i don't know what is the triggers this time. i don't know whether i feel sad or not - i think i feel disappointed for something i shouldn't expect at the first place, and which i know a long time ago. Weird is that this time i began to think - geez, it'll be a hell load of works to get rid of all the picts... (probably half of my album collection can be emptied?!)... i guess it's a good "beginning"? i don't know... time to use the "once new" MSN again...

my "therapist" asked me what advise i would give such that the situation / me would feel better - but after circling and circling the conclusion is that that's nothing much he can do to make me happy - b/c afterall the fact is the thing that make me disappointed. no alternatives. My opinions may be valid , temporary, maybe he's retrieved his true feelings, not worrying too much and tried to work things out... just maybe...

Have you ever feel like ur heart is like physically grabbed out of your body? the emptiness?

move on is the only thing i can do, I know...