i don't know whether this is another "wrong" decisions among all i've made in the last quarter or so - but i really can't do it sorely from the so-called "business/investment" point of view. I know i'm being selfish to tell you what my feeling deep down - but i can't help it as it had been bothering me ever since u've brought that up - cloud 10 to cloud 2 to cloud 8... and cloud 'negative a thousand" eventually...
i'm not trying to give you pressure, as i well known it's "not clicking" - i really don't wanna go back to the same old loop - but it's something serious, something i don't think i can trick and fool myself anymore - a commitment that i couldn't even keep it for myself - how can i keep with someone whom i see "no future" as we ain't "clicking?????
it hurts, it really does. i know you probably won't feel any better (or - just another "illusion" i've - that you actually care free?????) i don't know anymore... i really treasure for whatever we "have" between us... you mean so much to me and just part of me, in different levels.... the more i treasure the more afraid I'm to loss...........
but i just can't help knowing this's a dead end and i should "return"...
but i just can't help knowing this's a dead end and i should "return"...
i know i need to be strong... i've to believe that it's the right thing to do... yet.. i just wanna hide away...
sleepless - or maybe it's just b/c of the jet lag... *sigh*
sleepless - or maybe it's just b/c of the jet lag... *sigh*
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hanging there jasper. friends are always around when you need someone at any time. i didn't go through anything similar to yours yet ... however, you know ... i will be here for the next few weeks physically (though i think i am having some jet lag .. got up at 6am local time - but there's no need to go to work for me ... )
... yeah, but i recommend you that movie "The Holiday" or have him watch it and see how that "jasper" (yeah ... what a coincident!) did in the movie ... may be he will get some lessons in the storey.
i'll probably chk out the movie during wkend....
:*(
when are we going to watch miriam & eason's movie?
I should probably check out that movie too.
can you go friday evening? if not ... we will have to try next week. :)
JC, you have your cloud-9 friend ... and i think you may not need to watch that movie ... enjoy the nice summer with you cloud-9 friend. :)
oh well. I have more free time than you think. ask jasper.
Well Jasper, look at it as another chapter of your life and you have just completed it. Lesson learned, been there, done that, and let's move on to the new chapter because you just don't know what is out there waiting for you :-)
If you feel like to let it all out then just do it; it will make you feel better.
If you want to vent to a stranger just e-mail me ;-)
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